2024

WHEN:

2024

A year of finishing and starting, a year of grief and building ground

HOW:

I'm feeling strong physically, capable with a soft inside. Im traveling with a sense of heaviness, a bit lost and sorry for the things Im not doing enough. I have guilt that Im carrying with me. Im showing up agin and again, challenging myself. Thinking in hope and breath, also noticing negative thoughts keep arising about myself and my environment, how things should be or look, not always finding bow i want things to be. Moving with open heart and attention. To move takes me out of the mind and into the essence. Im feeling open, indecisive.

WHERE:

Im in Melbourne, Australia
Im searching
Im here
Im there
Im split
Im in my head and I’m in my body
Im understanding and Im angry
Im waiting.

WHAT:

Im seeking for purpose, for creative outlet. to have a say, be meaningful in peoples lives or in the world, my family. Im supporting people to share more joy through movement. Im getting to know my limitations, and need for plan. Im learning. Im giving and receiving. i try to appreciate what is. i wonder around in empty spaces, wanting to fill them up, fill myself up, fill/feel.

WITH WHOM: 

Im supported, i have much love around me. i have a family i created and i have the family i grew up with. my partner in this journey is open and sensitive, i feel softer when i let him close, when i let him take care of me. feeling drained when im being pulled into to many directions. i feel alone sometimes inside this reality.i know myself, i know my children and i trust them. i get anxious around not being the right person for them sometimes. i feel stronger, more true to myself when i connect with the power of my birth family.