2021
WHEN:
2021
HOW:
I am straddling a line of what i want and what i need. I am learning that i am more self sufficient than i feel. I feel i like to play a mothering role and that role i also resent. I am running down the streets most afternoons to catch a high and detoxify through sweating. I am chanting om to reset my nervous system. i am soaking under hot showers and being comforted by a weighted blanket. Thinking while i sleep, hypnosis tapes guide me there, and let me subconsciously process what's been happening during the day. I am moving forward, as always, with however much grace and kindness i can muster.
WHERE:
I am in the middle of the road, turning around and looking both ways, behind me and in front of me.
WHAT:
I am reconfiguring, smothering, waiting, tending. I am considering. i do not know in my heart.
WITH WHOM:
I am with someone for now. I dont know how long they will be with me. I want to know and also accept unknowing. I want to be with someone who reaches out to me.